Self-Salvation

Unlike the days when we were still young and innocent. Unlike the days when we were still experimenting the different aspects of life, which eventually are the good and bad experiences we all have today.

Today. Today's a good day to look at yourself again. You would see how much you've already evolved and changed into. You gained a certain amount of knowledge. You've been through reasonable amount of life encounters. You think differently. You act cautiously. But sadly, you are no longer as pure as when you were much younger. You find it harder to ask for what you want. You find it harder to do what you want. You feel the need to be politically correct. You feel difficult. You feel bounded and restricted.

The funny thing about this whole matter is. You know. You already know. After breathing for substantial period on earth, you know things. You know how to react to matters. You know how to solve them. You know what's "right" from "wrong" - politically. You know you're not taking control. And you know you have put a thin barrier of protection between you and the world you're in. A barrier of protection from embarrassment, gossips, and what others might perceive of you. And that's depressing to know. We are actually letting the environment takes control of us instead of the other way round. That's really depressing sometimes.

Without this barrier of self-salvation, can we still carry on this life journey?

Just summing up my week.

Monday. Work
Tuesday. Workshop @ Oriential. Catching up session over dinner @ Lau pa sat.
Wednesday. Work.
Thursday. Work.
Friday. Work and dinner.
Saturday. Ubi and Beach road for some fishing stuff. BBQ(EM) at night. Catching up session over coffee @ east coast.
Sunday. Lunch out with family. Grab my watch. Another catch up session @ PS.

"Life and mortality are in our faces all the time.
We could never know the length of our journey or how is it going to be like.
Yet we are certain that death is the end of our journey
Hence it seems to me that every minute is borrowed time for that extension.
And through this borrowed time we learn to care, to cherish and to appreciate.
And through this borrowed time we push death as far away as we can."